Fifteen Years Later....

[wallysgirl]

I know you want your characters to be all fluffy and mushy and whatnot. I was just suggesting that you don't..what's the word...Overdo it. it fer-seriously makes people feel like sh*t. So if you want Akito to stop being Akito, then you might as well do that.

*shakes head* Akito is not my responsibility. It's not about how I want Akito to be. It's about how you want him to be. Akito's not my OC. Only you can make Akito how you want him to be and only you can make him react how you want him to react. I don't control Akito, you do, you give him life, and you make him real. You decide how you want him to react to what happens in the RPs. And if you want his very being to be dependent on his feelings for Kairi, even when she's officially with Kenny and they express PDA's to each other, then that's your decision.

Thanks for the suggestion, but I like the fluff and I shall continue with the fluff. Sorry if reading fluff makes you feel "sh*ty," but I love writing romantic scenes and I'm not going to stop. And If you want decide to have Akito that greatly affected by how i make my characters act, then that's your choice.

Are you still doing Yuki's death or has the RP died? The last 2 pages have not even been RP related and this stemmed from you wanting to go ahead do Yuki's death which you had set for a long time. So we stopped the wedding, what do you want to do now? It's all on you.

[ChyukiPastukiSuzuki]

I think you misunderstood my last post. Because in your post before mine, you said that Akito's actions represent me hating the coupling of Kairi and Kenny. Personally, I don't care about it. But my character loved Kairi, therefore to make it more realistic, he's still in love with her. And in your post, it sounded like you were complaining that Akito still loves Kairi. Your fluffy scenes don't make me feel sh*tty, it makes my character (who is indeed not real) feel sh*tty. Personally, I enjoy reading your fluffy scenes because they're well written. To explain my last post, since it felt like you were complaining, I was saying that if you didn't want Akito to pine over Kairi anymore then you shouldn't have Kairi and Kenny be so fluffy around him.

At the moment, I'm really not sure if I want to do the death at this particular time. After all the sh*t that's been going down in this thread, having my characters and your characters being all caring and happy together would make me feel awkward to RP. It's not that I have anything against you, its just that I need some time to calm down about this situation. I'm sorry for causing the RP to come to a halt and inconveniencing you . You can finish the wedding or whatever. I hope you can understand and respect my reasoning.

[wallysgirl]

Oo.....Where did I say Akito's action represented you hating that couple?

What I was saying was....you would tell me you didn't care about it on MSN, and you were fine with it, then in the RP Akito would switch to so many different feelings that I didn't know what you wanted his relationship with Kairi to be. He would be okay, then he wouldn't, then he would be mad at her, then he'd try to get along with her, then he'd be mad again. On my end of the spectrum, that is confusing because all I knew was that I established Kairi/Kenny. Okay, so maybe I don't understand about relationships, but I don't know why they have to be complicated. Maybe when I my soul mate I'll understand but at this point, I didn't understand the realism you were trying to portray in an RP that was to be for fun.

To me, if someone didn't return my affections, then I would not continue to pursue them. I'd leave it at that b/c it'd be better for both of us, and I wouldn't dwell on it b/c it'd hurt me. I'd leave that aspect of our relationship alone b/c if he didn't like me that way, then that would be fine and I would not try to make him. Maybe you can't do that with true love or whatever, but I wouldn't know. Like I said, I've been too busy for a boyfriend, but I already know that if a boy is not returning my affections, then I'd leave him alone. Maybe I'd have to work with him on a project or something, but it wouldn't be more than that b/c i would see any sense in trying to make him like me that way when he didn't.

I never understood why Akito was still hooked on Kairi, but that's how you RP'd him. I wasn't going to tell you how you should make him act. I just didn't understand it, and it made me stressed out b/c I'm a neutral person and I didn't know what you wanted. Akito's actions conflicted with what you told me, it was confusing. And so I thought you did not like Kenny/Kairi b/c you had Akito still having feelings for Kairi. I never said Akito's actions meant you hated them, just that it seemed, to me like you were trying to enforce Akito/Kairi because he was still pining for her. I didn't understand why he didn't just let her go after I made her be with Kenny. When you have him still asking Kairi if she's ever going to dump Kenny after I've said both in and out of the RP that she wasn't, what else am I supposed to thnk but that you're wishing it was Akito/Kairi. And it was merely 2 weekends ago that you questioned me about it again, even when you said you didn't care. On my end of the whole deal, it's very confusing.

But again, all I know is that I have Kairi with Kenny and there will be fluffy moments. I've tried not to have them around Akito, but somehow he ends up being close by enough to hear what they say, see what they do, and be hurt about it even worse.

Like I said, I guess I just don't understand. But Kairi's relationship with Kenny isn't going to change.

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@ Yuki's death

And Okay, whenever you want to do it then. The wedding's not going to happen until after the funeral, if at all. I dunno.

[ChyukiPastukiSuzuki]

I understand where you're coming from, about how AKito's actions confuse you. Although I have to point out that he is a teenage boy and he has loved her for a very long time. Therefore, he would obviously be jealous when Kairi's with Kenny but he'd want to be friends with her when she's alone. As for him sgtill being in love with her..As much as I don't want to bring real life into this, when my parents got divorced, it really hurt my dad. They were together for a long time too. That's why Akito still loves Kairi. Because you can't just get over someone you love in a day. Sorry for my realism.

[wallysgirl]

Okay, I'm happy we're at least on the same page now.

And again, I apologize for rushing into the wedding when you already had something planned. I was over-eager.

[RohaHat]

Nice to know I was missed... I take it you guys didn't notice I deleted my account, considering neither of you questioned me about it? In case you also haven't guessed, this is Roz.

Yeah, I got p-ssed after Rika's last response to me because before she edited it she had just put "I don't care." and me being my irrational self figured that "If you didn't care you wouldn't post, dumb-ss. If you don't care so much, I guess you won't care if I just clear off then!" But like I said, I was being my irrational self, and I've been involved in a lot of drama that's gone down on this forum and the previous forum and I just thought "K BAIBAI." It isn't Rika's fault I left, or anyone's fault, it was just everything adding up and I didn't think I could be bothered anymore as at that point it didn't like anything was going to get sorted out.

Yeah, I regret deleting it now... -_- I think there's a way for the administrator to recover deleted accounts but I think they haven't been around for a while, so I'll use this account now.

[wallysgirl]

*sighs* I kept saying "I didn't care" in hopes that it would drop the issue.

I didn't know what you were still angry about after I had already stated that it was wrong of me to go through with the wedding without Yuki's consent, my apology, and my ceasing the wedding RP altogether.

The last thing you had posted was, "I agree with you, I may not post in this RP much anymore either" or someting similar to that nature. B/c we both were saying that the RP had gotten complicated. At that point, I think things were okay. Then your posts stopped and Yuki posted. I thought things were cool with you and me.

Things were okay, then Yuki posted I responded to Yuki with my thoughts & opinions (which I tried to do in a rather calm matter). Then all of a sudden, you came back with your post, "Who died and made you leader?!" And I'm like, "Oo...where the heck did that come from and what did it have to do with anything?!"

I had absolutely NO idea what sparked that. It just came out of the blue and I felt like I was being attacked for no reason. Like I said, I had deleted the wedding so that Yuki could continue to go through with her plan. So I was merely stating the fact, "We're at Yuki's death" or "Yuki can do her death thing now" b/c that was the truth. Then you said, "It's like you're playing the 'holier than thou' card." I just didn't understand how you got that interpretation out of me trying to drop the issue and let matters be.

"I didn't care" what you guys did in the RP. I didn't say that I didn't care about your responses. In fact, I respected you enough to actually read what you wrote (that was the purpose of writing/making a post in the first place right? For it to be read?) and take it into consideration, otherwise I would not have responded at all. But I felt the matters had to be address to try to clear up some sort of anxiety that just seemed to keep building. As such, I had hoped that you would have respected me in exercising MY right to respond back and defend myself. Naturally, with each post that was made that had tension in it, or misunderstanding, I tried to clear the a least a little water by explaining what my thoughts and perspective of things. But it kept going and going and going and honestly, I was so sick of it.

Hate to see that you thought I was a 'dumb***" for trying to drop the matter while also exercising my right to defend myself at the same time. <_< But with each response you made and the tension in the air, why wouldn't I respond? Just as you responded to me, naturally I felt I had to respond back to you. But at the same time I was hoping the matter would end b/c I did not know what needed to be discussed further after I had apologized. When I wrote "i don't care" at the time, I kept hoping that me saying, "I don't care" would stop and you guys could get on with the RP like as that was the initial nature behind the whole thing. But no one did; they actually had more to say so I continued to express my thoughts just as you and Yuki expressed yours.

But when you left, it removed the link to your name so no one could PM you. And I haven't been on MSN. Aside from that, You were pretty angry(apparently so much that you left) so I thought continuing to talk to you would only make things worse. I actually didn't know that you had left b/c sometimes Yuki has posted under 'guest' and that was under your name. I didn't know you had deleted your account. I'm sorry you felt you had to do that and I'm sorry you got that upset.

[RohaHat]

*hasn't read your whole post*

Like I said, I was being my angry, irrational self, and nothing I said that I thought up there reflects what I really think. When I'm mad or p-ssed off I think things I don't mean and if I don't stop myself I say them and have to make up for it when I offend people.

I wasn't really attacking you, I was speaking my thoughts which I should really stop doing, considering the recent events here...

It isn't anyone's fault I deleted my account, I was just being an idiot.

*has read the whole post*

For trying to end the arguing and stuff, you were definitely in the right and I was just seeing it the wrong way.

Yeah but I spoke to Yuki yesterday and she hadn't noticed. XD

Don't be sorry; like I said, it is all my own fault that I freaked out and deleted my account.

[wallysgirl]

I'm happy you're feeling better now. ^-^ I think everyone is feeling better.

[RohaHat]

I should bloody well hope so! XD

Okay, if I remember rightly, Yuki said she didn't want to do Yuki dying yet because of all this mess that was going on, didn't she? So maybe next once Yuki gets on again we could, I dunno, plan our next stage of action?

[ChyukiPastukiSuzuki]

Hey!!! *waves arms rapidly* I'm here!!! And I think I'm ready to kill off Yuki (if it's chill with you guys) I just wanted to wait until everything was good and whatnot. '^^

[RohaHat]

I'm fine with that! ;D

[ChyukiPastukiSuzuki]

(sorry bout my absense. I was grounded for bad grades '^^)

Yuki: *doing dishes and singing*I don't blame you, for being you. But you can't blame me for hating it....

Simon: Shouldn't you be sleeping? It's 10:00 AM

Yuki: *flatly* I just thought the dishes needed to be done. *turns around and hugs Simon*

Simon: You didn't sleep last night, did you?

Yuki: What makes you say that?

Simon: Because you sound tired.

Yuki: *quietly* My time is running out. And I'm scared. And I don't want Akii to be scared. And I don't want you to be scared. I don't want to go. I really really don't want to.

Simon: *kisses her on the forehead* You don't have to be scared. It's okay.

Yuki: I'm going....to sleep. *walks over to the couch and lays down*

Simon: Want me to take you upstairs?

Yuki: *looks up at him* Carry meeeee.

Simon: *smiles* Fine *picks her up and takes her upstairs*

-----meanwhile-----

*at school*

Akito: *sleeping at his desk*

Connor: *throws a crumpled peice of paper at him*

Akito: *mumbles* Go away.

Connor: Wake up. Everyone's staring at you.

Akito: *lifts his head up and looks at Connor* I got a total of about 10 minutes of sleep last night because I spent the whole night watching infomercials with my mom.

Connor: *looks down* She'll be gone soon.

Akito: I don't want her to leave me.

Connor: None of us do.

[Renee]

Mimi: *in class doodling* Hmm...

Ricky: *looks over her shoulder to see what she's drawing; it a picture of Yuki* Penny for your thoughts?

Mimi: *sighs* I charge five dollars for mine... *rests her chin in her paw* Why is life so unfair?

Ricky: Oo...So, I'm guessing this isn't about the math problem huh?

Mimi: *shakes her head* Mm-Mm. My Aunt Yuki is sick, I'm just worried about her. *shrugs* I'll be okay...

Ricky: And I'm sure your Aunt will be okay too. A-and if she's not...Well at least she lived a great life right? She has people who love and care about her. Try to think about it like that...

Mimi: *brightens a bit* Yeah, you're right.... You're just full of wisdom aren'tcha? *nudges him playfully*

Ricky: Hey, it's a gift. *shrugs* Now, what'd you get for number 6? *looking over his math work* I got 47, but I don't know I think I did something wrong, what do you think? *holds it out to her*

Mimi: Mmmmm....Oh!! I see the problem, you forgot to carry the three. You just added wrong that's all. The right answer is 53.

Ricky: Ohhhhh, yeah, yeah, I see it now. Thanks Mimi. ;D You're kinda smart too. *nudges her and eagerly fixes his work*

Mimi: *blushes a bit and smiles shyly at him* *shakes her head* STOP IT MIMI!! >< It's just Ricky...Oh, what's wrong with me? Maybe I'm sick? I'll ask Kairi or my aunts about it later, they're smart, AND are girls after all. *nods and goes back to her work*

[wallysgirl]

Kairi: *humming "Thank You" from the munks CD UndeniAble to herself as she answers the questions from her workbook*

Kenny: *is next to her, pokes her arm* Hey, you okay?

Kairi: *small smile* Somewhat....I'm fine.

Kenny: You don't look it.

Kairi: Well...

Kenny: ....Oh! Oh yeah...um....hey, you know if you want to talk...

Kairi: i know. *smiles at him sweetly* Thanks Kenny.

Kenny: *smiles, leans foreward and kisses her forehead before going back to his seat*

Kairi: *sighs, goes back to her work, though she isn't completely focused*